SCARED OF GROWING UP

I seriously should start working by now and start applying in any Institute ~ am I late already ? Will my future be ruin because of this ? I don't know :(

I feel very insecure with my condition right now ~ there's a lot of things running in my mind by now . Will I ever be accepted in any Institute ? Should I start working ? Should I accept that part time job ? Should I just stay at home and do nothing ? OMG ~ life as a high school student was way easier =.= but , I know , I am no longer a high school student . I am soon to be a woman . I need to be ready for that .

And ... for sure ... life is going to be harder than this . I'm just gonna do my best and pray <3